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Challenge: Lebensmittel/Getränke - Suppe zum Gesund werden - für mich
Titel: Into the Deep VI
Fandom: Star Trek AOS
Charaktere: Leonard McCoy/Jim Kirk
Wörter: 1464
Sprache: Englisch
Teil 1, Teil 2, Teil 3 , Teil 4, Teil 5
Leonard looked at the bowl that Jim had put into his hand suspiciously. “What is this?”
“It’s soup. So you get back on your feet as fast as possible,” Jim said and sat down next to Leonard’s bed. The first instinct Jim had had when Spock told him that Leonard had woken up the other night was run down to him, see how he was doing. In front of the doors to medbay he had stopped though. For all the last few days that he hadn’t wanted to leave Leonard’s side he had no idea what he should do when he would see him now, awake and healthy. Jim had no idea what he should say to him.
Out of fear he had turned around and instead worked through the whole alpha shift. But Spock found out and told him that Leonard had asked about him. So Jim had no real excuse to avoid him anymore. He brought the replicated chicken soup so that he would have something to start a conversation and as it seemed it was working.
“I don’t have a cold, Jim,” Leonard complained at once. “And you can’t call this replicated nightmare a soup. It’s not. Probably, it will just make me sicker than I already am.”
“You don’t know what’s good,” Jim played the hurt friend and took the bowl of soup from Leonard and put it a few steps away on someone’s desk.
Unfortunately Leonard took that as a sign that the soup topic was off the table. “So, you had a busy day?”
Jim could hear the silent question beneath it so clearly, “Why haven’t you come sooner?”
“Yeah, not really.” Jim didn’t want to lie. Leonard deserved better than this. With a quiet sigh he let himself fall back on his chair. “I just … I was here this morning, right in front of these doors,” he pointed behind him to the entrance, “and then I just panicked.”
Leonard frowned. “Panicked? Why?”
“Because I’m the reason you are in here,” Jim wanted to blurt out but knew better. Leonard would just fight this statement. “I didn’t know what to say,” he said instead.
“James Kirk who never shuts his mouth didn’t know what to say?” Leonard teased him, but his voice was soft and gentle. It calmed Jim down, let him believe that Leonard actually understood that he didn’t mean to upset him.
Jim just shrugged. “There is a first time for everything.”
Leonard smiled at him and especially in this moment Jim realized how much he had missed it. How much he had missed Leonard. And if he didn’t know what to tell his friend, how about some parts of the truth. “I missed you, Bones, more than you can imagine.”
Leonard raised his head a little more, locked eyes with him and just looked at Jim in silence. Normally there was always a dialogue between them, now Jim was just content to sit next to his best friend and to look at him. Seeing him awake was all that Jim needed.
They sat like this for at least ten minutes before Leonard ended the calming silence, “I’m sorry, Jim.”
Jim frowned confused. “About what?” Nothing about this was Leonard’s fault. It was all only bad luck, very very bad luck.
“Forcing you to let go. I can imagine that this must have been terrible for you. And I’m sorry about that.”
Jim’s mouth opened but no sound came out of it. Leonard shouldn’t apologize for that. He did what he thought was right in this moment. Hell, Jim would have acted the same way - and he would have hated to leave Leonard like that. He sighed quietly. “I know you only did it to save me.”
Leonard smiled. “And it worked.”
“Yes, for me.” Jim said harshly, and he was surprised about the hint of anger in his voice. Until now there had only been guilt. Guilt for letting Leonard go, for not being able to help him. Guilt and fear. Anger didn’t cross his mind at all. And now it was just there, it came so suddenly that Jim had no idea how he should deal with it. “You could have died, Bones!”
“I didn’t!” Leonard reacted as tensely as Jim felt.
“But it was close. Damn close.”
“I’m sorry about that but what did you want me to do? Let us both fall to our deaths? That wasn’t an option.”
Jim shook his head. “I could have pulled both of us up. We would have been safe.”
Leonard took a deep breath, dug his fingers into the blanket that laid over his body, and let silence wash over them for a second. It seemed to calm Leonard down, Jim on the other hand felt angrier with every passing moment.
“The branch was breaking, Jim. It wouldn’t have held both of us. There were two options. We both fall. Or just me. I choose me,” Leonard explained a lot calmer.
That didn’t stop Jim in his ranting. “How could you? When I was climbing down, the whole way, I was convinced you were dead. I thought I’ve lost you. I thought I’d never-” Jim stopped, unable to speak any further. Uncontrollable sobs shook his body. He hunched forward when it didn’t want to stop, rested his head on Leonard’s bed. Immediately a hand was running through his hair.
“I’m so sorry, darlin’.”
Jim concentrated on the fingers running soothingly through his hair, tried to calm his breathing and get his body back under control. He closed his eyes for several moments and just let himself rest. These emotions had been overwhelming. Until now he had been sad and scared, never angry at Leonard for what he had done. And he wasn’t now, not really. All of his feelings from the last few days had crushed down on him and anger was easier to cope with than pure fear.
What he should feel though was relief. Relief that Leonard was still alive. That he was still with him, here on the Enterprise, and that he wouldn’t go away. Not for a very long time.
“Hey, Jimmy, you’re feeling a little bit better?” Leonard asked after a while, long after the sobs had vanished.
“I’m-” Jim raised his head, looking right into Leonard’s eyes. His beautiful brown eyes were tinted with worry. “I’m good. I’m sorry, I didn’t want to lose control like that.”
“Hey, it’s okay,” Leonard whispered and cupped Jim’s cheek. “You had to let it out.”
Jim nodded. Leonard was probably right. These emotions would have come to the surface sooner or later. Maybe sooner in this case was actually better. Leonard didn’t seem to be angry with him, just concerned - which was no big surprise because Leonard knew what it felt like to almost lose the other. Jim had been literally dead once.
And Leonard had shouted at him as well, maybe not on the first day when Jim had woken up but later. They were probably more alike than they realized.
“Are you really okay?” Leonard watched him closely and it seemed as if something about Jim still concerned him deeply.
So Jim just nodded, still completely confused by all of these emotions. They were in no right order and he had no idea what he was feeling right now - only that he was damn happy to have Leonard here, right in front of him. “Yeah, just-” Before Jim could think about it or convince himself not to do it, he pushed his upper body a little up, and sealed Leonard’s lips with a kiss. “Just don’t do something like that ever again,” he whispered after he pulled away a little, staying close enough to still feel Leonard’s hot breath on his skin.
There was a second of silence before Leonard breathed, “Jim…”
Suddenly the realization hit Jim of what he had just done, and his heart pounded a lot faster in his panic. He pulled away so that he could actually look Leonard in the face again, trying to find out, if he was repelled by the kiss or not. “I’m so sorry,” he apologized instinctively.
Leonard shook his head lightly. “Don’t be.”
“I ambushed you with this.”
“You did!”
Jim’s whole world was crumbling apart after these two words, convinced that Leonard didn’t want this kind of relationship. “I’m sorry,” Jim said again. “I didn’t mean to. If you don’t want - we can just forget about-”
He was silenced when Leonard pressed his lips on Jim’s. His hand wandered on Jim’s back and pulled him a little closer. “Now we’re even,” he whispered and Jim could hear the smile in his voice.
The beautiful smile that Jim couldn’t have lived without. “I’ve missed you so much.”
Challenge: Lebensmittel/Getränke - Suppe zum Gesund werden - für mich
Titel: Into the Deep VI
Fandom: Star Trek AOS
Charaktere: Leonard McCoy/Jim Kirk
Wörter: 1464
Sprache: Englisch
Teil 1, Teil 2, Teil 3 , Teil 4, Teil 5
Leonard looked at the bowl that Jim had put into his hand suspiciously. “What is this?”
“It’s soup. So you get back on your feet as fast as possible,” Jim said and sat down next to Leonard’s bed. The first instinct Jim had had when Spock told him that Leonard had woken up the other night was run down to him, see how he was doing. In front of the doors to medbay he had stopped though. For all the last few days that he hadn’t wanted to leave Leonard’s side he had no idea what he should do when he would see him now, awake and healthy. Jim had no idea what he should say to him.
Out of fear he had turned around and instead worked through the whole alpha shift. But Spock found out and told him that Leonard had asked about him. So Jim had no real excuse to avoid him anymore. He brought the replicated chicken soup so that he would have something to start a conversation and as it seemed it was working.
“I don’t have a cold, Jim,” Leonard complained at once. “And you can’t call this replicated nightmare a soup. It’s not. Probably, it will just make me sicker than I already am.”
“You don’t know what’s good,” Jim played the hurt friend and took the bowl of soup from Leonard and put it a few steps away on someone’s desk.
Unfortunately Leonard took that as a sign that the soup topic was off the table. “So, you had a busy day?”
Jim could hear the silent question beneath it so clearly, “Why haven’t you come sooner?”
“Yeah, not really.” Jim didn’t want to lie. Leonard deserved better than this. With a quiet sigh he let himself fall back on his chair. “I just … I was here this morning, right in front of these doors,” he pointed behind him to the entrance, “and then I just panicked.”
Leonard frowned. “Panicked? Why?”
“Because I’m the reason you are in here,” Jim wanted to blurt out but knew better. Leonard would just fight this statement. “I didn’t know what to say,” he said instead.
“James Kirk who never shuts his mouth didn’t know what to say?” Leonard teased him, but his voice was soft and gentle. It calmed Jim down, let him believe that Leonard actually understood that he didn’t mean to upset him.
Jim just shrugged. “There is a first time for everything.”
Leonard smiled at him and especially in this moment Jim realized how much he had missed it. How much he had missed Leonard. And if he didn’t know what to tell his friend, how about some parts of the truth. “I missed you, Bones, more than you can imagine.”
Leonard raised his head a little more, locked eyes with him and just looked at Jim in silence. Normally there was always a dialogue between them, now Jim was just content to sit next to his best friend and to look at him. Seeing him awake was all that Jim needed.
They sat like this for at least ten minutes before Leonard ended the calming silence, “I’m sorry, Jim.”
Jim frowned confused. “About what?” Nothing about this was Leonard’s fault. It was all only bad luck, very very bad luck.
“Forcing you to let go. I can imagine that this must have been terrible for you. And I’m sorry about that.”
Jim’s mouth opened but no sound came out of it. Leonard shouldn’t apologize for that. He did what he thought was right in this moment. Hell, Jim would have acted the same way - and he would have hated to leave Leonard like that. He sighed quietly. “I know you only did it to save me.”
Leonard smiled. “And it worked.”
“Yes, for me.” Jim said harshly, and he was surprised about the hint of anger in his voice. Until now there had only been guilt. Guilt for letting Leonard go, for not being able to help him. Guilt and fear. Anger didn’t cross his mind at all. And now it was just there, it came so suddenly that Jim had no idea how he should deal with it. “You could have died, Bones!”
“I didn’t!” Leonard reacted as tensely as Jim felt.
“But it was close. Damn close.”
“I’m sorry about that but what did you want me to do? Let us both fall to our deaths? That wasn’t an option.”
Jim shook his head. “I could have pulled both of us up. We would have been safe.”
Leonard took a deep breath, dug his fingers into the blanket that laid over his body, and let silence wash over them for a second. It seemed to calm Leonard down, Jim on the other hand felt angrier with every passing moment.
“The branch was breaking, Jim. It wouldn’t have held both of us. There were two options. We both fall. Or just me. I choose me,” Leonard explained a lot calmer.
That didn’t stop Jim in his ranting. “How could you? When I was climbing down, the whole way, I was convinced you were dead. I thought I’ve lost you. I thought I’d never-” Jim stopped, unable to speak any further. Uncontrollable sobs shook his body. He hunched forward when it didn’t want to stop, rested his head on Leonard’s bed. Immediately a hand was running through his hair.
“I’m so sorry, darlin’.”
Jim concentrated on the fingers running soothingly through his hair, tried to calm his breathing and get his body back under control. He closed his eyes for several moments and just let himself rest. These emotions had been overwhelming. Until now he had been sad and scared, never angry at Leonard for what he had done. And he wasn’t now, not really. All of his feelings from the last few days had crushed down on him and anger was easier to cope with than pure fear.
What he should feel though was relief. Relief that Leonard was still alive. That he was still with him, here on the Enterprise, and that he wouldn’t go away. Not for a very long time.
“Hey, Jimmy, you’re feeling a little bit better?” Leonard asked after a while, long after the sobs had vanished.
“I’m-” Jim raised his head, looking right into Leonard’s eyes. His beautiful brown eyes were tinted with worry. “I’m good. I’m sorry, I didn’t want to lose control like that.”
“Hey, it’s okay,” Leonard whispered and cupped Jim’s cheek. “You had to let it out.”
Jim nodded. Leonard was probably right. These emotions would have come to the surface sooner or later. Maybe sooner in this case was actually better. Leonard didn’t seem to be angry with him, just concerned - which was no big surprise because Leonard knew what it felt like to almost lose the other. Jim had been literally dead once.
And Leonard had shouted at him as well, maybe not on the first day when Jim had woken up but later. They were probably more alike than they realized.
“Are you really okay?” Leonard watched him closely and it seemed as if something about Jim still concerned him deeply.
So Jim just nodded, still completely confused by all of these emotions. They were in no right order and he had no idea what he was feeling right now - only that he was damn happy to have Leonard here, right in front of him. “Yeah, just-” Before Jim could think about it or convince himself not to do it, he pushed his upper body a little up, and sealed Leonard’s lips with a kiss. “Just don’t do something like that ever again,” he whispered after he pulled away a little, staying close enough to still feel Leonard’s hot breath on his skin.
There was a second of silence before Leonard breathed, “Jim…”
Suddenly the realization hit Jim of what he had just done, and his heart pounded a lot faster in his panic. He pulled away so that he could actually look Leonard in the face again, trying to find out, if he was repelled by the kiss or not. “I’m so sorry,” he apologized instinctively.
Leonard shook his head lightly. “Don’t be.”
“I ambushed you with this.”
“You did!”
Jim’s whole world was crumbling apart after these two words, convinced that Leonard didn’t want this kind of relationship. “I’m sorry,” Jim said again. “I didn’t mean to. If you don’t want - we can just forget about-”
He was silenced when Leonard pressed his lips on Jim’s. His hand wandered on Jim’s back and pulled him a little closer. “Now we’re even,” he whispered and Jim could hear the smile in his voice.
The beautiful smile that Jim couldn’t have lived without. “I’ve missed you so much.”
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