Into the Deep V [H/C - "Wo ist er?" - für mich]

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Team: Schneewittchen
Challenge: H/C - "Wo ist er?" - für mich
Titel: Into the Deep V
Fandom: Star Trek AOS
Charaktere: Spock, Leonard McCoy
Wörter: ca. 1150
Sprache: Englisch

Teil 1, Teil 2, Teil 3 , Teil 4

Despite every sane logic Spock somehow managed to convince Jim to leave medbay and get some rest. They had only one day left and apparently Jim had made it his mission not to leave Leonard’s side. After being there all day and half the night Spock knew that it was time to get him out of there. Spock had be prepared to remove Jim with force if necessary but the promise to remain at Leonard’s bedside in Jim’s place seemed to be enough.

“Nyota adviced me to speak to you,” Spock said after a while. Silence had spread through the medbay. Leonard was the only patient and the late hour only left the nurse on night shift in Leonard’s office, doing some paperwork. “She truly believes that you can hear me.” Spock looked at Leonard although he knew that no reaction would come from his friend. Spock doubted that Leonard could actually hear him. He was unconsciousness, which meant that he was not aware of his surroundings.

Nevertheless Spock found himself telling Leonard about all the stuff that had happened over the last few days, starting with all the injuries that had occured during Leonard’s absence as doctor. Leonard had always cared deeply about every single member of this crew, even beyond his duty of CMO. So he would be relieved to hear that everyone had been treated with all the care they needed, and with medical professionalism. Doctor M’Benga had done an amazing job in replacing Leonard for the time being, although the Doctor had made clear that he only wanted the job temporary until Leonard was back on his feet.

“They are all very fond of you in this department,” Spock told him. “And very loyal.” He stopped for a second, taking a deep breath. “They all need you to wake up, Leonard, especially Jim.” Actually Spock was very worried about Jim. He had never seen him like this, not even after Pike’s death. The Captain was devastated, and the loss of Leonard would scar him deeply. “He is not the same without you.”

Spock took a second - or rather minutes - to gather his thoughts and to make sense of all the mixed feelings inside of him. Normally he was able to control them, today was not such a day. The situation got more pressing with every passing hour and Spock couldn’t deny the possibility that they would lose Leonard in a few hours, even if he had tried to convince Jim from the opposite.

“I believe your loss would change me too.”
“I’m not dead yet,” Leonard’s raspy voice echoed over to him. Bewildered Spock looked at his friend in awe. “I think,” he added. “Am I?”
Spock shook his head to assure his friend that he indeed wasn’t dead. “You are very much alive, Doctor. And awake.”
Leonard smiled weakly and closed his eyes again. “Good.”

While Leonard was apparently sleeping again Spock stood up and fetched the nurse. She checked over his vitals, and smiled warmly at the Vulcan. “All seems well. His body is just immensely exhausted. He’ll probably get around in a little while again. You are very welcome to stay.”

Spock nodded. “I will look over him for the rest of the night.” After all he had promised Jim to stay until he returned. Shortly he thought about getting Jim but then remembered that he desperately needed some sleep. The nurse explained that he would probably be in and out of consciousness the next few hours and that they wouldn’t have a proper conversation. Jim was fragile at the moment and Spock wasn’t sure if it would do him or Leonard any good when he got him now.
Spock would just remain here until the next morning, until Jim had enough sleep and Leonard was more responsive.


“I thought it was a dream,” Leonard mumbled the second time he woke up. “Spock at my bedside?”
“I assure you it wasn’t a dream, Doctor.”

Leonard turned his head, looked Spock over with tired eyes. “Yeah, I can see that. What brought you here?” Before Spock could even answer, Leonard continued his rambling, “I mean you wouldn’t be my first guess to be here when I wake up. Maybe Geoffrey or Christine. Or of course Jim.”

Spock could see the change in Leonard’s eyes. Calm turned into sudden panic. “Jim!” he exclaimed and sat up with a jolt. “Where is he?” Leonard frantically searched the room with his eyes. His fastened heartbeat let the bed sound in alarm and the nurse came running back in.
“Doctor, please calm down,” she said before running her tricorder over his body.
“The Captain is in his quarters, Doctor.”
The alarm quieted down and Leonard looked at Spock. “He is okay?”
Spock nodded. “He is in full health. He is merely sleeping. After all it is the middle of the night.”

Leonard cracked a smirk. “You banned him to his quarters?”
“He did go voluntarily. He just asked me to remain here with you in his place.”
The smirk turned into a fond smile. “And this would explain why you’re here. Captain’s orders.” Leonard let himself glide back onto the bed. It was apparent that his little panic attack had cost him some badly needed energy. “And here I thought you were maybe a little worried about me.”

Spock kept quiet for a moment before saying, “Worry is an emotion.”
Leonard huffed. “Of course. How could I forget that?”
“I am certain that you did not forget, Doctor. Due to your current state of health it might have slipped your mind though.”
Leonard shook his head, smiling. “I bet that you missed our little discussions.”

Spock looked at Leonard, taken aback by these words. First Leonard had mentioned these emotions that Spock would rather push down deep into the back of his mind and now he guessed what Spock had been through the last couple of days. He had tried to stay in control, to be the master of his emotions but with every passing day it had become harder. Spock had felt helpless, and in the end he had accepted that these emotions couldn’t get turned off this time. Nyota had said to him that it was okay, and he trusted her judgement. So Spock didn’t fight anymore.

And just like any other Vulcan, he told the truth. “I certainly did.”
Now it was for Leonard to look at him speechless.
“We all missed you, Leonard,” he added. “The whole crew of the Enterprise has changed since your accident.”
“And I thought they were all afraid of me,” Leonard said with a smirk on his face.
“I assure you they value you as an important member of this crew. And I for myself believe that you are one of the most important ones, keeping us all together.”
“Spock…”
Spock reached out and squeezed Leonard’s shoulder. “I am very glad that you are okay.”